Saturday, February 13, 2010

Pregnancy and me

This has been my hardest pregnancy. A whirlwind of up's and down's, testings, ultrasounds, sickness, being tired, lack of any energy at all, the red light on any sort of exercise. Its been a tough one. But its ensured us both that it's our last time doing this.

I have hardly had any cravings, other than that of nausea medication. Does that count? It seems that the things I have wanted I eat over and over again. Eventually I get sick and, well, there goes ever wanting that again. Last week it was a Costa Vida salad. I love them. Especially the kick of the dressing. As I got the flu, that eventually landed me in the ER for 5 hours, the first thing I said to Dave was "Crap. There goes my love for Costa Vida." And sure enough, after throwing up about 15 or 20 times (sorry if thats too much information), I dont know if I can ever attempt its deliciousness again.

There has actually been a funny change. Rather than crave things I have mainly just lost the desire for certain things. Example. I love Pepsi. I have tried and tried to kick the habit and I just cant seem to do it. Over the past months a funny thing has happened. I dont want it. I dont really want anything to do with it. Now this may be one of the first things to go as, eventually, Im feeling better. For now, I don't drink the stuff, there's simply no craving. The only thing I want is this


With this pregnancy I almost feel as though Im getting sicker the further along I get. And its a sun up till sun down sort of thing. In that way this pregnancy is much more like the one with Luke. And though I still think its a girl I sat in my 5 1/2 hour meeting today all about boys and it made me imagine it. Another little boy. Its hard to wrap my head around for some reason, maybe because its been girl after girl. I think I've gotten use to the idea of a house full of dresses, bows, plastic heels and nail polish. But, like I said, this has been a very similar "boy"pregnancy. And Im hoping that, like with Luke, one day very soon I will wake up and all of this sickness and exhaustion will have vanished with the night.

But I hope my Pepsi addiction is cured forever. That would be a nice result.

11 comments:

Scimber said...

The same thing happened to me with all sodas...I was completely addicted before, and as soon as I got sick, I wanted NOTHING to do with any of it...but as soon as I started to feel better, it was definitely the first thing that started to sound good again. I too hoped it wouldn't but me and Pepsi just can't get over each other! :)

Deb said...

Jill,
Sorry to here your not feeling good with this pregnancy, but good to here you have kicked your pepsi habbit! I too lovED Pepsi. I think I drank it through both of my pregnancy's, until recently stoped drinking soda all together. I feel so much better too. Heathiler!!!
So good luck. I actually love crystal light now. Yum!

Tasha said...

Oh, I am so sorry you have been so sick. Sigh. Oh, how pregnancy was so hard for my last one that I still just get nervous thinking about it. And it has been over a year now. I wish I could do something for you. I cannot wait to find out what this little one is. Boy or girl. Hang in there.

Ryan said...

So sorry you have had such a rough go at this pregnancy. Poor thing! But selfishly I can't wait to see that cute baby in 4 months!

Ryan said...

Sorry, that was Kim. But I'm sure your brother feels the same way.

The Ball Family said...

ah man Jill, this pregnancy is just unfair for you. No one should ever have to feel as yucky as you have been. I hope hope hope that you actually do wake up one morning soon and the yuckies have vanished. Don't you just love Zofran?

Kristie K. said...

Sorry you are having a hard time. Can't wait to find out the sex of your baby, and did you know Smart water is suppose to help during labor? my instructer told me to drink it during labor. Hope that helped...
can't wait to see you guys.

Kristie K. said...

Sorry you are having a hard time. Can't wait to find out the sex of your baby, and did you know Smart water is suppose to help during labor? my instructer told me to drink it during labor. Hope that helped...
can't wait to see you guys.

The last Unicorn said...

Oh my gosh! I only had about 9 weeks of the sickness and one trip to the ER and I thought that was rough! I hope you "turn the corner" soon and feel better! It is funny though. Once it is over you are like "that wasnt that bad". Well, maybe.
At least you kicked the Pepsi. That is a feat in and of itself!

The Nedrys said...

Sorry it has been so rough...I hope you feel better soon, Jill! Hang in there!

Bryn said...

I am so sorry that you have been so sick! I haven't been keeping up with your blog because wasn't it private for awhile there? I was trying to figure out how I could get an invite! :) Either way, congrats on the pregnancy!! I'm glad to be able to check back in now and see how your abdorable family is doing and how life in CO is! I hope you start feeling better soon!!

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